Trying to comment about my recluse attitude about not communicating like before?
What world are you living in when you expect constant communication from someone when it was supposed to be a 2-way thing?
I never knew phone calls were not supposed to cease when there was no response nor acknowledgement from the previous calls
Sending emails which are ought to be replied never got any reply?
Stepping out of our shells and see where we got the respect is something we are all working towards.
Receving the phone calls and emails were so good to you that when it stopped ur selfish self had to complain they stopped coming maybe you are not feeling the relationship anymore?
I thought relationship was about 2-way communication but when one person keeps doing it, they wont feel appreciated, putting you in your place doesnt give you the audacity to act like a snitch.
Sometimes we feel like we can do it all by ourself, we dont know who is out there that is so paranoid about crowding. The hostile attitude you are putting up can as well match well with someone that is smothered with your hositility as well, putting up a self-defence just shows the level of your cowardice and how well you cant take criticism.
Before jumping into rash conclusions/judgements, looking back on how grounded we are, sometimes does matter.

Am chatting at a Nigerian chatroom called onlinenigeria.com, oh my oh my thats some weird place to go while away time, you get to know how funny Nigerians can be and how irresponsible they can be. They tend to be some set of intelligent people and got some brilliant traits in them but they are the definition of nuisance. Too bad an average Nigerian that comes in there cant hold a good conversation, but the level of interaction you give them brings out their real self. I tend to go there and have fun and most times not for meeting people because Nigerians are just so hypocritcal of everything, dont wanna divulge personal information and they take it against you. But its a place that you can get addicted to and nice to check up on sometimes.....

My life is not deserted, neither it’s lonely but it seems to be different from the average. Sometimes I can feel the love all around me, and sometimes I just want to have some resentment feelings, but it might probably be the product of the obnoxious state that I have been in which in one way or the other might have disgusted some other party which causes condemnation sort of. The fun which I derive from the pleasure of being obnoxious and probably being loud is just for the limited time, with time being everything will elapse and you find yourself in a position you will feel maybe you are being avoided like a plague or something.

However, when the feelings of rejection take over you, the only way you can pull it through is your self-conscience. Being positive is being independent of changing circumstances, circumstances cannot be changed just like that without you trying to get to understand the real you. Getting to understand you, shouldn’t be because of some sort of huff or looking at yourself in a sort of mediocre way. Nope you are not getting in touch with your real self in true genuinely. You are just trying to respond to criticism that favors the critics, and that will probably end up in a negative influence for you. Nevertheless, a positive mind is always active and ever going, optimistic, want to take control of the situation and make sure you don’t go down the path that’s bringing you the poor being state of mind that you are in now. Respond to criticism in a positive way, unbiased way you know can only influence your life positively the way you see it. In addition, you need to get the real knowledge about what it entails, if the outcome of it does worth your while. Is there a light at the end of the tunnel at all? You don’t want to fulfil someone's desires, be it in anyway, negatively or positively, at your own expense. You want to be your greatest motivation yourself, you don’t care about what people say provided the actions you are taking is not going to haunt you or dent your image at the end of the day. Make the decisions, bring up the constructive ideas you have in you, the thoughts you have that might impact people's lives, most especially yourself, thoughts that will impart grace to people's lives. Conceive the idea, reconstruct it, outline the outcome of it, and see if it comes in your favor, provided it’s not going to hurt your neighbor. We can’t try to be Jesus every time but we want to keep the law of Karma in heart, what goes around comes back around. That should be effective in what we do.

Getting to know my real self was good for me, I passed through some stage in my life and all I could do is thank God and appreciate all His goodness in my life. Though we pray and sometimes we don’t get to see the results of our prayer as fast as we want, while we were focusing on that on particular interest, some other things are working in place for us. In matter of time all what we are asking for is sure going to fall in place, because all things work together for them that love God.