How does it feel to be 21?

I think that'd rather be asked in another way! How does it feel to turn another age? Well I havent noticed what difference it makes to turn another age while growing up to this age of mine. What does a kid like me know? Every thing at my disposal, what do I know about the world

Things took a turn around after I turned 20; I realized how to live in my own world. Living behind someone's shadow doesn’t just cut it, could be worse if there are so many factors you are being sentimental about, the primary is the sexual orientation. Their actions couldn’t have been faulted if it was based on the moral value of the conservative society we are from, but it’s on hypocrisy and gossip. The emotional state of the "mum's boy" is so fragile that he has care about what they say and think, just to fit in with them and have less to talk about. That was then; I got to know how to stand up for myself.

I was very depressed on my birthday, for real I was really depressed, trying to ponder over my life and see what I have achieved so far, all I could comprehend is this same old mummy's boy. I realized its time to move forward, take charge. I am an adult now; I have to take charge, taking charge of everything I mean. Everything concerning my life is now in my hands. My education, which subsequently leads to my career, my lifestyle, my finance. Everything concerning my life is now at my discretion, I dont have to take the back seat and gulp every word you tell me on how to live my life. Now let me take control for once and forever. I might take suggestions and advice but that doesn’t give it a shot that I am going to make good use of it, because this is about ME and MY LIFE. It’s my world NOW.

Off to a rocky start though, but I am optimistic! I can make decisions concerning me; I had to reason and see what makes a healthy lifestyle. I laid down criteria and I follow it, not for anyone but solely for me. Whoever I lay with doesn’t have to be your problem, whatever institution or degree I am taking shouldn’t be such a burden for you, I guess. I think I can control my life and its now or never, I need to take the right course, the rightful path that I decided to tread upon; with God, I will be fine.

I see a light at the end of the tunnel!